“Cease striving and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” (Psalm 46:10 NASB)
I’ve been learning a lesson lately. Okay, well it’s been a lesson for a few years now. I’m learning.
I can be a very ambitious and driven person, but my expectations can be unrealistic. Often these expectations lead to frustration, disappointment, and sometimes even discontent and despair. This ambitiousness can be great. I get a lot of things done. However, I have to watch myself and am asking the Lord to continually help me realize I’m on a slippery slope while I am still at the top of it. That way I can, by His grace, get off of said slope before I slide all the way to the bottom.
And I’ve seen growth here. This last year has especially been a year of great growth, and I praise the Lord for this. He’s calling me to simplify. I don’t have to try and accomplish every idea that comes to me right away. Perhaps some of these ideas will be for later. It’s a matter of discernment that can only be realized through prayer. I’m learning.
Agh, but I get so impatient! I want things to come together. I wonder what I should do. I grow restless. I grow irritated. I grow frustrated.
Simplify. I hear this call to scale back. Maybe this is all too much. Maybe there is still a more simple way. What if I didn’t care about crossing off everything on my to-do list? I’m learning this.
It’s taken years, but I am learning this.
The Hebrew word for still from Psalm 46:10 means to relax, to sink down, to let drop. The Hebrew word for know here involves knowing by experience and to recognize.
When I chill out and recognize that He is God (and I am not), He is exalted. I can exalt Him because I know that He is in control, He is good, and He’s faithful and true. All of the details are not overwhelming when placed in His loving hands. I have seen this time and time again. He keeps showing me, and I’m so thankful.
When I stop striving and pressing and forcing things to go the way my ambitions would prefer, I am able to again recognize Him as God and move forward again in His joy and peace. He can be trusted, I remember.
“All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
He can be trusted with it all. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll go to bed at a decent time.